I don't usually make blog posts about my different experiences on here but this time I decided I wanted to. There was a meet up in Charlotte about a week ago where five of us were going to meet up but it wound up being three of us. Leslie, Jess and myself. It was very cool meet up and so much happened over the next week that I just had to write about it.
The first meet up was between myself and Jess who was to stay at my place for the weekend since no one else could offer a room in their current situation. I loved the idea though was unsure how my parents would feel about it as I live with them. So I asked and they saw no issue with it. I gave up my room and slept on a spare bed we have in the house over in our library. It was a great experience in that room, a fresh angle on life, I never complain when I am to give up my room, I do so gladly and with glee and gratitude. I cleaned up my room and smudged it with sage, washed the sheets and added a few drops of essential oil to the carpet.
I was getting sleepy as it was close to my bed time so I decided NOO I will not fall asleep and let her arrive without a warm welcome! So I decided I would go outside and sweep the driveway. It woke me back up as I thought it would and lo' and behold as I was nearly done she drove up to our house! We waved and greeted with broad smiles and I got Jess settled in. We ate a little grub and chatted for a bit and then went to bed. The next day we met with Leslie and ate at a cool restaurant. This was an experience of many firsts this past week and I will mention many of them! First time at this restaurant, first time having cucumber water and first time meeting Leslie! Many more as well!
When we were done eating we checked out the mall next door and went to some girly stores. lol It was really nice though and I even tried out an exfoliating hand rub! We took some pictures hanging out and really just enjoyed the experience. It was fun and new and only the beginning!
When Jess and I got back we settled in and so began a wonderful week long stay. It wasn't intended to be a week but it just worked better that way as Jess wanted to go to the beach but it was raining every day until her birthday. So each day we pretty much hung out all day and did creative fun stuff. We did a live broadcast on FaceBook #firsttime and made a video of my first live portrait #firsttime. We Sang a duet live #firsttime. I essentially gave my first live art lesson #firsttime. Jess did a self portrait and I think she is a natural at art. I also went to karaoke for the first time and sang! Wow we offered each other so many gifts, this is how life is supposed to be!
When it came time for her to depart for the beach she offered to take me along and after a little thought I decided it was a great opportunity and accepted the invitation within an hour of leaving. It was a great experience and departure from the day to day life I'm used to. We went into the waves many times I would guess maybe 8 times or more. One time we walked a mile or so down the shore line and back through the waves. I really felt awakened by the sea and was reminded of how stupid and foolish the desire to control is, within minutes of entering the water. I just found myself thinking how ignorant it is. We cannot interrupt the breath of the universe, there is no pause button on the waves of the sea and they will take you with them like it or not. I found myself dancing and moving to the tide and just embracing my natural connection to life. I asked the that truest truths become my way of living, that I be an embodiment of the organic life or truth and that illusions be released from my perceptions. It was profound and wonderful. I felt like I could stay out there all day every day. It did not get old.
I found myself aware of something Bryant McGill talked about in one of his broadcasts on SimpleReminders.com about how the extraordinary IS in the ordinary because EVERYTHING is the divine if we have but eyes to see. Now I hate to sound all romantic as that is not what is intended, but I knew my time with Jess was precious and so I found myself very present and aware of how divine each moment was and all I wanted was to not take it for granted. It was very eye opening from the way she greeted me even when we parted for even just a few minutes to her sense of humor. I looked at my attitude and behaviors towards my parents and became aware of how I was not fully appreciating them, it had become an unconscious habit, something we did because we always did it that way. These created "norms" within our relationships make it possible for abuse to continue I feel. Because we get so comfortable in our ways and lazy in a sense and when new people come into our lives we become more present to our behaviors. At least I did this time.
On Jess's birthday we went to a restaurant near the beach with a live band who was great, they sounded amazing really. We didn't hold back, we just got what we wanted and I became blind to money. I had a knowing that THIS IS WHAT THAT MONEY IS FOR! I even spoke to Jess briefly about it. And Jess if you are reading this good, you had a glow to you that night, I felt like I was in a dream. Anyway, I offered Jess a birthday dance and we set out to finish the night up with another visit to the beach under a full moon. Crazy awesome. We even got back in the water a little, high on life.
The next day we set off for home. Overall a lot of first times, and a strange dreamlike surreal experience. It's like everything lined up for us in a way. My friend Glenn even hit me up at the perfect time so that we could arrange a photoshoot which we all benefited from!
I truly am gifted to be around such wonderfully aligned people in my life! I remain in a near perpetual state of gratitude. I am healed so deeply and what is left to heal will heal with such ease and grace, I already know it. It is already done. Thank you Jess, thank you Carmella, thank you Glenn, thank you all!
There are so many more details I am leaving out because I am not trying to write a book here! lol You'll see the fruits of things as time goes on. :)
Now look, I get it. It's hard to find inspiration sometimes to be creative. It is my journey too, and I found my way out of that and I want to help others to do likewise, to reconnect to their natural creativity. That spontaneous and brilliant spark that does not because, it just is. I am choosing freedom, and do you know that it is freedom that is choosing creativity through me. That's the simple of it. These can be found in the galleries or by clicking on the images.
So some of you will find find this pretty fascinating. There's a little story behind me making so many portraits in one day. When we are dozing off to sleep we often get our strongest insights since we are essentially moving into a space of allowing. The practice of meditation allows us to enter this space and remain conscious so we can extract information and guidance for our lives. In my own way I have been meditating for a long time but I don't call it meditating, I would be more inclined to call it listening. Anyway I was int that in between phase, having woke from sleep but not quite ready to wake up, I was shown something, I saw myself creating way faster than I normally do and I got a strong feeling... "I can DO that!" and I committed to doing it. I see now, I was being guided on how to better use my energy and time and after waking up the next day I was moved pretty quickly to turn it from sketching random things into portraits! And now I am pretty certain that this is how I will do the rest of the Thought Leaders! That will free up so much more time and the end result in some ways is even more beautiful because I am coming from a much more energetically free space. <3 You can get to the larger version of these through the portrait gallery.
I've gone to see Anita Moorjani once before at a Celebrate Your Life event in Houston Texas. I heard her story of seeing things beyond the realm of what we think of an normal human perception. I can't recall if she said it or if it is just my original opinion but I think what she was perceiving was likely more normal than what we now perceive on a day to day basis. She saw that we are energy beings that are constantly connected to one another, constantly exchanging energy on many levels. Anyway, I like her story. When I make these portraits I use my own inner measurement to see how the facial features relate to one another and form geometrical shapes and lines by their placement. See larger image in the portrait gallery.
I was actually pretty impressed with how this one came out. I did an overlay after the fact and found that there really is very little difference between this portrait and the photograph it was taken from. Due to not liking how it screws with my layout I've decided not to share the original. Not to mention I have gotten approval to share the photo from its owner but just trust me, it's really really close! lol Seeing it here on the screen though, the differences are a little more noticeable. See a larger version of the image in the portrait gallery.
I have to admit I was unaware of who Robert Ohotto was prior to making this portrait and so in the middle of its creation I decided to go research Robert on Youtube and see what he was all about. I only really picked up that he is a life coach and is very emotionally connected to himself. Through the videos I got a clearer idea of what he looks like and decided to use Creative License to give him that scruffy look he sometimes goes for in his YouTube videos. Not sure that it is preferred but I thought it looked cool and since the portrait was beginning to look a little too much like Arnold Schwarzenegger I decided this would help make it more distinctly him! See the larger image in the portrait gallery.
Woohoo! I managed to get this done in one day! I mean that's not a miracle but when you've got as many things to do as I have it kind of is. I've decided to start really copyright marking my portrait work. I've noticed there are those out there who will do anything to get what they want and I am not about to let me work be stolen. Anyway with this one I almost gave up on it somewhat early on as I noticed the eyes were spaced slightly off but you know what I pressed on. It doesn't have to look exactly like the photo is just has to look beautiful and resemble the individual to count as a success for me personally and I had to remind myself of this. Liz Dawn Donahue portrait can be seen in the Portrait Gallery.
I've listened to Gregg Braden speak about subjects that essentially bridge science and spirituality and that's what drew me to his work many years ago. I bought and read his book 'The Divine Matrix' and found it very fascinating. I love how he can talk about scientific things and give them a spiritual spin as well as talk about spiritual things and show how they are actually scientifically founded thoughts and ideas. As I am attending an event in November at Celebrate Your Life where he will be attending, it is my hope to gift this to him and I also hope he will help me in return by signing photo prints of this portrait to be sold at the event and beyond if necessary. It is so exciting! Larger version in the Portrait Gallery.
Over the coming months I have plans to do a lot of portraits and just got my first I suppose, in a long line of portraits to come. Some will be color but I think most will be black and white. This is going to be a massive learning experience, or skill inducing one. Every time we practice with something we hone our awareness of it and so putting in several hours of drawing a day I haven't done in a long time so I expect this to be very challenging. I intend to complete a minimum of 23 portraits by November the 4th and likely several more. Here's one I just completed of a boy named Graham. You can see the full size image in the portrait gallery.
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