Due to being so overwhelmingly tired I did not write yesterday.
So the photoshoot with Stephanie was yesterday and we had a great time! It was great to be able to visit Glenn at his house and spend some creative time with him and Steph. She is a great girl, very creative and pretty too. We had one shot where we were face to face and I thought it would be easier than it was, but both of us were holding laughs in the whole time, I still laugh just thinking about it. Being that close to someones face is pretty intimate and we just met each other and it was staged so it was really allot like someone tickling you while you try to put on a plain expression. We got some great photos from the shoot though. I loved it. Plus Stephanie is now a new contact and we have lots of potential to collaborate. I look forward to the potential which has been infused in this moment by courage and action!
Again, though there were some challenges within this experience it was predominantly not about the challenge and more about the presence and enjoyment and embrace of the gift of life!
It's a shift I notice is occurring quite naturally. At first my goals and intentions were about me grow into me. They were firstly interested in my own well being, but now as I expand outward and connect with others my interest is in their well being as much as it is in my own. My happiness is not necessarily dependent on theirs but I deeply CARE that they are happy! I feel I am reaching deep into myself and into them and looking for the same freedom, joy, presence and empowerment. I am not just interested in me, it is us. Truly! Some kind of friendship or heart connection is being made, when they are unhappy much my energy feels inclined to tune into them and find out how I can serve them, how I can relate to them, how I can bring them to a more joyous state. It's instinctive, and it's growing.
All that I am doing does take courage! Coming from where I am, a former recluse and self imposed social reject, I am not allowing any of that to matter anymore. I AM what I choose to BE! And I am what I love! It doesn't matter who I used to be, it matters who I choose to be, and that is all.
Here are some of our photos from the shoot. These make it look like we are a couple, but it is art. It is meant to look as it does. Though she is undeniably beautiful and... well... I'm single. Let's just say that.
All things creative.