Today I awoke from some interesting dreams that were mostly symbolic. It seemed to bring up a relationship between myself and ideas. Rather than describe the whole dream here I will simple note that it seemed to suggest that I take even bigger risks than I have so far. I was trying to swing on a trapeze but I was too close to the ground, this suggested I need to get off the ground, to not be so dependent on the familiar base from which I launch into my adventures. Though truly I cannot be sure what it was saying specifically, I'll have to meditate on it a little I think. The messages I got from my dreams were:
I do not know too well about the kundalini. I mean I have heard this and that about it, some things make it sound glamorous and as if it is THE path, while others suggest there is a darker agenda behind it.
Trusting What We Know, Not What We're Told
Overall I have decided not to base my decisions or my beliefs on something someone else has said, be it positive of negative. If I am going to know the REALITY then I have to in some way either experience it directly or tap into a hidden ancient knowledge myself. As buddha said "Believe nothing anyone tells you - not even me..." (paraphrased) and I am quoting him simply because it reflects my own wisdom. Anything can be made to sound true, words are powerful, but we need to use discernment and decided if something that we hear from another is really worth basing our reality on. Our future, the bases of our decisions now? I have done just this, both from religion and from New Agers and others. They seem so sure of themselves, and because we have no idea what the hell is going on sometimes, and we are so desperate for some sense of a foundation, we seek leaders outside ourselves and begin a slow process of making them our idle and putting more and more of our beans in their cart. The more confidence they exude the more confident we feel.
Might I just suggest this is because we don't trust ourselves, we feel unworthy somehow to be discerners of truth for ourselves so we look for someone to pre-package and sell it to us.
One of the exercises I did was to imagine this being I have invested so much trust in looking me right in the eyes and admitting they could be wrong. Then see them sitting there pondering with uncertainty. Realize that this could actually be something you might experience if they were completely transparent. Take your beans back and really start being honest about what you know and what you don't. Then face your reality as it is and start from where you are, discover what is real and true in your direct experience. Become a scientist of our own conscious experience.
I contacted a gallery again today and showed them a photo shopped image of my art in their gallery. I'm hoping to inspire them to take a closer look at my work and also let them know how important it is to me. I don't expect immediate acceptance, but I know I will not back down so long as I feel enthused about it!
All things creative.