Today I was faced with a choice and it seems all of the cards were stacked in favor of me saying yes. My father invited me to join him on an inspection of a property a little over an hour away. I spend more time at home than I'd like but at the same time there is a comfort about it that perhaps gets in the way of personal growth. As I had already been shaping up and showering this is when I was reminded about the potential day trip. This was the window of choice, it is a window because I have half an hour to decide and mentally I went back and forth trying to find the right phrase to tell myself, because I knew it was the best thing to go, but the ego mind and habitual behaviors have a hold, and so I have to find out what it will take to shake that off so that I can live more on a whim. All kinds of excuses come up, anything so that the frightened ego can keep its hold on the familiar. The key for me was to realize that my ego will never stop coming up with reasons not to change, and when it can't find a valid reason it will simply freeze and generate fear out of nothing. The second key was to remember that Joy is what I live for now, nothing else is worth aspiring for to me. Joy is the feeling I get from allowing myself to live from my Spirit rather than my mind. At the end of the day nothing matters more. Whether it was sitting by the lake all day that my Spirit wanted or working endlessly on a project from dawn until dusk, it was feeding my soul and that's what matters. Time disappears, Peace is instilled in the mind and I feel alive finally. We have many blocks to this, some things our ego agrees with easily and others it has many blocks around, so we'll face those blocks as feeling stuck or feeling fearful. But what we really want is Joy Joy Joy!
I asked myself this "Which choice will lead to more Joy in my life?" I had to realize that comfort is not the same as Joy. Comfort and Joy can co-exist but they are not one and the same thing. And in fact what we call our comfort zones are not really very comfortable at all, they comfort our ego but our Soul feels like it's dying inside if we let what comforts our ego dictate the flows of our life. We need fulfillment and that comes through the Spirit that resides within, Our Heart and Soul, our Core.
So I went, and I am very glad. :)
By going I also recognized that we dress for success or failure. In other words, if we lounge around in our pajamas all day we really have no intention on going ou or being seen by another human being. But if we prepare ourselves everyday as though it is THE DAY for all of our dreams to come true, for all of the opportunities we ask for to show up, Hell, we'd better be ready to jump on them at the drop of a dime because opportunity don't wait around for slackers to get dressed and mentally clear away the fuzz, it says here I AM and if you're coming along you got T-10 seconds! Dreams do not wait for us. Be ready all the time for them to come true, so that when they do you are not asking for a few more days to get ready. As Will Smith said "Stay ready and you won't have to Get ready!"
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