So today we have finally decided that we are going to do the shoot tomorrow! Everyone has confirmed the arrangements and I am super excited for it! I also gave myself a unique haircut for this as my hair felt like it was getting too long in the back. blah blah blah I know.
This is soo fun to be able to explore photography as well as continue to face my fears. Any sense of fear is dissolving very fast and I am getting more enjoyment from it than apprehension. Which can only mean that pretty soon it will either take on a new level of personal challenge or the personal challenges will begin to shift into a new region.
What does Your Love Feel Like?
A couple nights ago I went through a personal healing in my dreams which seamlessly transitioned into my waking consciousness. I just all of the sudden felt such intense love for myself, and all of this striving and achieving almost felt distracting. It was such an intense emotion I didn't want it to leave me. It was a moment where I realized that I am not loving myself fully through my day to day activities, and I know this because in that moment I felt so much love from my core it made me cry. First in my dreams and before I knew it I was awake crying, but I cannot say at what point I was dreaming and at what point I woke up. They were literally as if one experience. I am so thankful for this, because now I feel my core more, I know my core more and carry that frequency in my awareness and through my being more strongly. I do loooove myself, deeply and wholly and I know it is my deepest wish to not withhold that love from myself for any reason. So this is something I need to return to often. To remember that all of this personal work is beneficial and beautiful, but once it's all over all that will matter is love, and this journey was, as beautiful as it is, a bit of a distraction from loving myself fully. But That is at the core of this journey so I will embrace it fully and be as pure a representation of my eternal essence as I can at all times.
All things creative.