Oh yes this is good. This morning as I was waking up and still in bed I began to very simply realize that all of these concepts which I am using to grow and expand into a greater experience both of my inner terrain and outer, it ALL comes down to loving myself. This is at the heart of it ALL folks!
I am reminded of a wonderful woman Sonia Choquette and her book "The Answer is simple, Love Yourself Live Your Spirit". I knew right away when I got the book that it was very special and when I first got it I was content enough just to have it in my presence for a few days before I actually began to read it, the energy coming out of the book was so loving and soothing. I absolutely love the title too! It's where my own path is taking me, to a simplicity. All the processes I am going through is taking me to my heart! Remember my intentions? Well upon closer inspection it is all about getting rid of low self worth, loving myself by remembering I am worthy, and repeatedly giving myself gifts that in the past I refused myself, now saying "I'm worth it!" The right was about garnering self respect and the left was about simply loving myself regardless and living the things my Spirit wants and deserves right NOW, the center was about detaching from all of the drama and finding MY center, it is entering the void and discovering what I am not aware of. Seeing this it all becomes so simple. My future is bright, for self love transforms everything!
What we are willing to give ourselves is a reflection of how much we feel we deserve. When we love ourselves fully we will not withhold anything from ourselves.
So this process I am going through is unveiling what my spirit wants, and I am learning to aim for the sky and meet every self worth challenge that I cross. I have even kept amazing friends at a distance from myself because on some level I felt I was not worthy of having deep and meaningful relationships with loving beings! I mean this touches on every aspect of our lives! From the quality of clothes we have, to the quality of food we eat, to how close we allow ourselves to experience the divine! Lets start loving ourselves fully ya'll.
Revealing Intentions that Count
I have a whole list of things I intend to do that will be acts of self love that up to this point I realize I have withheld from myself because of unconscious self loathing attitudes. I am not going to share them all, but I will share many or maybe even most. This is another act of self love, that I should allow myself a grain of privacy within this transparency. To allow myself an element of mystery to my audience and to give people a chance to learn about me fully only when they take the time to get to know me one on one. In this book I am revealing allot, but really only as much as I feel will benefit the readers understanding of themselves and my journey. It is not a detailed biography, though those may be nice, I don't enjoy writing too much about the past. I am more enthused about writing about my present and the potential within it. The past comes up only to help me see how I created it and to grow into a place where I can consciously co-create something new.
Why Some Goals Are Undesirable
Do you know why goals sometimes don't feel desirable? Because we are not doing it for our Spirit, we are doing it to please something outside of ourselves, or to earn something outside ourselves. It is an egoistic goal, one based in lack. For instance, I've always wanted to be featured in an art exhibit. I set that goal before, but it was to prove I was successful to OTHERS! Yes deep down I wanted it for me because only THEN would I consider myself successful or worthy. NOW I am intending it, but not from a place of lack. I am intending it from a place of deserving, from a place of passion and enthusiasm, from a place of feeling successful already and believing I have every ability and right to make this happen. I was sabotaging myself in the past because, since I felt undeserving, naturally and automatically I would stop myself at the actions that I needed to take to make things happen. If it was calling someone, or making prints and showing someone, or painting in public... Someone who feels filthy with self loathing will NOT give themselves the gifts they know they deeply need. This is why self love is so imperative to our ability to create. We always manifest our reflection.
Here are some of the intentions I have set in motion.
Intention List based on Self Love:
Because I deserve it!
1 Twin Flame themed Photo Shoot
2 Gallery Display of "Edens Return"
3 Professional Recording of me Singing
4 Publish my Books
5 To see my online friends in person
6 Win Awards for My Art
7 Be Interviewed by multiple Sources
8 Photo of me Kissing Pregnant Tummy
For the first time in my life, I am confident that I will experience the fulfillment of each and every one of these intentions! And with great passion and ease!
All things creative.