It is my fullest intention that this book be manifest, but as with anything that is to be manifest from a vortex space, or from a heart space, we must be willing to simultaneously embrace it and commit to it as well and release it. To cling tight to anything is a sure way to constrict it, as well as ourselves. So last night this thought came to mind, to let it all go. This morning I awoke from a dream which had a Eureka to it, a message from Anastasia maybe?! Well maybe it is, but certainly it touched on an inner knowing which I will attempt to put to words.
The knowing that emerged is that it is not merely a mathematically formula that solves problems, but the PRESENCE of Spirit and the PASSION and investment of WILL (intent) that does it. It's like a knowing that it will be and the simultaneous fullness of presence. In the dream I exclaimed "Yes!! Yes!!" and even saw myself writing it down within the dream to remember it. (It's interesting that this morning I felt drawn to sign up for Shazzie Speaks 2.0. Shazzie is very passionate about the concept of passion!) This all screams a natural commitment that a being who knows it will be has, yet the natural releasing of the creation, as intense control is not required. True control is a knowing that something will be and the passionate investment of personal will and attention. And a trust and knowing that it will be. Not necessarily a calculated mathematical equation coupled with a worrisome mindset and ever intensifying grip to "make sure" it is.
The one who KNOWS is in a natural passion for the result and simply enjoys the process.
As I laid awake in contemplation of Anastasia, I intuitively felt I needed a shift of thought, ever so subtle. My energy was skewed slightly, like I felt a little unsure and that created a subtle controlling mindset. As I laid there and let Spirit speak the understanding came quieter than a pin drop, the words to embody the understanding came as I tuned in more.
"In order to ever have direct knowledge of anything one must assume nothing but their own ignorance."
When it settled in fully, I felt ease. I immediately applied this to Anastasia. I cannot assume I know her, or what she is about, what she looks like or anything at all about her. I need to remain completely open and approach her as a pure Enigma at present. Only when I am as open as a newborn babe can I experience her without prejudice. Only through this innocence can she come through as she really is and not be shaded by the preconceptions of others.
So now I ask Anastasia to reveal herself to me, that my art not be shallow or misguided. That it embody a richness of Spirit that can capture at least a fragment of who she is. I don't want fluff, if she is the worth the investment of time then I want it to show through the painting. I want realness, not surface, rehashing of pre-made concepts. I don't mind it looking similar, I just want it to be REAL.
In regards to Uranus/Pluto Square this month of September, I liked this particular quote:
“Go for the challenge. You have everything to gain if you take the initiative and shake your life up even on the most mundane levels. Make choices, eliminate and commit. The ripples outward will revitalize you.” ~Pat Liles from The Power Path.com
Today I caught a butterfly mid-flight. Actually I took the picture because there were two of them dancing together but I frightened them. I guess I was a little too eager. :D
All things creative.