I woke up this morning and felt fine to stay up for a little while but pretty quickly I felt like I needed to lay down. When I went back into "dream land" I found before too long that a Native American Tribe had channeled my spirit from this time and space back to theirs. I've been channeled before but this is the first recollection I have of an actual Historic Culture channeling my wisdom and integrating it into their Cultural wisdom! I knew what I was talking about but I can't recall what it was about now. I spoke it to him and he translated it into their language. I felt honored and humbled at once. It appears we are becoming teachers though time and space through the learning experiences we have today. I was blown away!
Also it appears that the original Jesus Christ, or our local star (the Sun) incarnate into human form may have been Native American, not Jewish. This experience suggested that this is the case, but I cannot say for sure.
Energy and Money
Wow yeah it seems to just be one of those days, my energy is not very high today. I feel like napping allot. I'm sure it has something to do with the kundalini manipulation a couple days ago but also I am changing allot an that requires plenty of rest for me. Mid afternoon I had to lay down and I felt my heart and crown were energized as I lay there in bed. If you think you need a nap but have allot of work to do I highly recommend just laying down for a little while, sometimes the body just needs to lay down, not necessarily sleep.
Eric stopped by today and paid for some pages of his book that I am illustrating for him. We agreed he would pay in advance. It is always a little exciting to get paid, simply because it feels like suddenly you have more energy to work with, more you can use to step forward in this world with a certainty. Though I am finding an excitement in the idea of not having money and finding a way to make everything work out magically anyway. To be on an epic journey and have no money in my pockets but still find that everything I need finds me somehow. This is ultimately something I must experience first hand and I feel it is in my future. Ultimately I will move beyond money altogether, of that I have no doubt.
I read a quote from Osho today also where her said "Don't decide, accept everything in its totality." Now to just take it at face value seems to suggest you don't make ANY decisions in life, but I feel he may have meant something a bit different. That we not pick and choose what we will accept and love but we embrace the whole of existence as it is. I do not think he meant not to consciously weave our lives as a dance with creation. Obviously he supports spontaneity and living in the moment. Feeling out his words though did bring up a feeling of just wanting to do as he says and just enjoy and be present in my totality. Though this is conceptually appealing we do have resistance at times and to be here fully even that must be embraced, but eventually moved beyond. I feel Osho is very wise, and I listen closely to what he says, but his words are suggestions, not orders, so we must find the truth within ourselves as his words highlight our own inner messages, as with any wise being.
This was relevant to me now because I am writing this book and there is a sense of mission within it that can be a drag if it becomes the point. That I must move through this and this and that before I am here fully. No, it must be that I am here fully NOW and that these intentions are just ways of making the most of it. To see what I am capable of and explore the possibilities with a deep sense of play, not so much mission. Yet I also feel as a man an instinctive calling to be all that I can be, and if anywhere in my life I have programmed in behavior that is preventing me from complete spontaneity then I must address these blockades and have fun in the process!
All things creative.