Well, I just finally heard back from the owner of that art gallery and he said to send my portfolio for review! I like the sound of that. It's no coincidence that this very day (yesterday) I had just begun a very large painting of Fiona Apple and was in a really high artist's vibe at the time. Just goes to show that we get what we put out, and though I put out the invitation many days ago I haven't been in such a wonderful space of artistic meditation in a long while. Painting in oils reminded me of a deeper desire or passion in regards to art. I enjoy working in traditional mediums far more than digital. It feels more real, it feels more tactile and pulls me in more. I feel a much deeper sense of enjoyment when I'm so directly involved in every stroke and it falls off my fingers onto the canvas directly as opposed to the computer responding and doing it's best to represent my movements. It's just a whole different feel, an I feel like a "true" artist when I am painting because it is so meaty and direct.
I've also been getting more direct with women about my manliness and my intentions with them. I think I always have though, I've always been pretty direct it's just my intentions in the past have been more childish I think. I just wanted friends to talk to and to help people heal their emotional wounds through relating and through words. I still enjoy that, but as I step more and more into the energy of the inner MAN I feel a definite difference in my desires and my intentions are also shifting to that of a MAN vs. a boy. Call me a late bloomer, but I knew all along I had some things to heal and I embraced that process.
There is still the issue of travel. I don't know what the answer is but what I will say is that the best thing I feel is to reach out to the locals to fulfill my creative wishes and meanwhile refine my vibration to one that embraces and expects travel more. I want to travel and create so much that there isn't a state or Country that doesn't have a representative creation of mine, and the larger the scale the better. Simply because I have a passion for beauty and I want modern society to remember the beautiful and the natural and not get lost in the fast paced consumerism mindset, and artificial cookie cutter world. Admittedly I am still in it, and it has it's place, but I'm really starting to feel a need to pull back from it a little and persue the natural arts, the traditional mediums. It's the difference between listening to classical music on a cd player and going to a concert hall, there's hardly a comparison.
All things creative.