I have come to some new clarity last night and this morning. It seems hanging out in the Vortex does indeed have its perks! Not only am I seeing what I want more clearly but feel that they are not only more possible and the FEELING is that they are Probable! That is an amazing feeling to have in areas where in the past I've felt extremely limited.
What seems to happen is at some point we clearly identify what we want. We see it plainly, we feel it deeply and it even makes our heart skip a beat and fills us with intense excitement for life. Then for what ever reason we form a belief that says "That's not possible" at which point we close the door to our true desires and work diligently to fashion a sub-desire, something that tries to make up for what we've just blocked ourselves from.Call it settling for something okayish since it's better than nothing. Then we invest so much energy into it and the results speak for themselves. Then one day we are reminded of our true desires and our beliefs about it come up again. All we need to do is CLEARLY identify what we actually want. For me I just had to get into a graceful detached mode of living meditation and allow that knowledge to pierce my reality. What I've come to recognize is that we don't have to CREATE something to want, it's all there already it just needs to be seen.
For instance, I have wanted to make my own video game for a while, but since I didn't believe it was possible I distracted myself and settled for just playing them occasionally and watching others play them on YouTube. Just one example. I didn't force that desire into place, it happened on its own. I grew up playing these games and a passion stirred at a young age. So it comes down to recognizing our True Desires that are already there and then forming a state of being with our thoughts that allows us to believe in it. When we fully believe in it we can begin to feel it is possible, then probable, and watch as we act with inspiration in seeing it through effortlessly. It takes effort only when we are working against a belief system that doubts the possibility.
So today's Mantra is "I can, I can I effing CAN!"
Said with Appreciation and positive energy. Here are two more Affirmations to remember.
"I am so grateful that I am literally surrounded by all the things I want, just eager for me to align my energy and allow them in."
"You are capable of so much that you simply have not given yourself the gift of witnessing, you just need to believe in yourself and these possibilities."
Another reason I have found myself blocking experiences is that I am trying to uphold a particular identity. I want to be perceived in a certain light and anything that shatters that ideal is avoided, even if it would be a life giving experience. THAT to me is the key to knowing what is desired. It feels LIFE-GIVING in the moment I think it or do it! It is all about this moment and our alignment to the LIFE-GIVING energy of new experiences. It could be agreeing to help a friend out with something, it could be cleaning the house, it could be anything really! The question is "Does this make me feel more alive and eager towards life?"
All things creative.