The first meet up was between myself and Jess who was to stay at my place for the weekend since no one else could offer a room in their current situation. I loved the idea though was unsure how my parents would feel about it as I live with them. So I asked and they saw no issue with it. I gave up my room and slept on a spare bed we have in the house over in our library. It was a great experience in that room, a fresh angle on life, I never complain when I am to give up my room, I do so gladly and with glee and gratitude. I cleaned up my room and smudged it with sage, washed the sheets and added a few drops of essential oil to the carpet.
I was getting sleepy as it was close to my bed time so I decided NOO I will not fall asleep and let her arrive without a warm welcome! So I decided I would go outside and sweep the driveway. It woke me back up as I thought it would and lo' and behold as I was nearly done she drove up to our house! We waved and greeted with broad smiles and I got Jess settled in. We ate a little grub and chatted for a bit and then went to bed. The next day we met with Leslie and ate at a cool restaurant. This was an experience of many firsts this past week and I will mention many of them! First time at this restaurant, first time having cucumber water and first time meeting Leslie! Many more as well!
When we were done eating we checked out the mall next door and went to some girly stores. lol It was really nice though and I even tried out an exfoliating hand rub! We took some pictures hanging out and really just enjoyed the experience. It was fun and new and only the beginning!
When Jess and I got back we settled in and so began a wonderful week long stay. It wasn't intended to be a week but it just worked better that way as Jess wanted to go to the beach but it was raining every day until her birthday. So each day we pretty much hung out all day and did creative fun stuff. We did a live broadcast on FaceBook #firsttime and made a video of my first live portrait #firsttime. We Sang a duet live #firsttime. I essentially gave my first live art lesson #firsttime. Jess did a self portrait and I think she is a natural at art. I also went to karaoke for the first time and sang! Wow we offered each other so many gifts, this is how life is supposed to be!
When it came time for her to depart for the beach she offered to take me along and after a little thought I decided it was a great opportunity and accepted the invitation within an hour of leaving. It was a great experience and departure from the day to day life I'm used to. We went into the waves many times I would guess maybe 8 times or more. One time we walked a mile or so down the shore line and back through the waves. I really felt awakened by the sea and was reminded of how stupid and foolish the desire to control is, within minutes of entering the water. I just found myself thinking how ignorant it is. We cannot interrupt the breath of the universe, there is no pause button on the waves of the sea and they will take you with them like it or not. I found myself dancing and moving to the tide and just embracing my natural connection to life. I asked the that truest truths become my way of living, that I be an embodiment of the organic life or truth and that illusions be released from my perceptions. It was profound and wonderful. I felt like I could stay out there all day every day. It did not get old.
I found myself aware of something Bryant McGill talked about in one of his broadcasts on SimpleReminders.com about how the extraordinary IS in the ordinary because EVERYTHING is the divine if we have but eyes to see. Now I hate to sound all romantic as that is not what is intended, but I knew my time with Jess was precious and so I found myself very present and aware of how divine each moment was and all I wanted was to not take it for granted. It was very eye opening from the way she greeted me even when we parted for even just a few minutes to her sense of humor. I looked at my attitude and behaviors towards my parents and became aware of how I was not fully appreciating them, it had become an unconscious habit, something we did because we always did it that way. These created "norms" within our relationships make it possible for abuse to continue I feel. Because we get so comfortable in our ways and lazy in a sense and when new people come into our lives we become more present to our behaviors. At least I did this time.
On Jess's birthday we went to a restaurant near the beach with a live band who was great, they sounded amazing really. We didn't hold back, we just got what we wanted and I became blind to money. I had a knowing that THIS IS WHAT THAT MONEY IS FOR! I even spoke to Jess briefly about it. And Jess if you are reading this good, you had a glow to you that night, I felt like I was in a dream. Anyway, I offered Jess a birthday dance and we set out to finish the night up with another visit to the beach under a full moon. Crazy awesome. We even got back in the water a little, high on life.
The next day we set off for home. Overall a lot of first times, and a strange dreamlike surreal experience. It's like everything lined up for us in a way. My friend Glenn even hit me up at the perfect time so that we could arrange a photoshoot which we all benefited from!
I truly am gifted to be around such wonderfully aligned people in my life! I remain in a near perpetual state of gratitude. I am healed so deeply and what is left to heal will heal with such ease and grace, I already know it. It is already done. Thank you Jess, thank you Carmella, thank you Glenn, thank you all!
There are so many more details I am leaving out because I am not trying to write a book here! lol You'll see the fruits of things as time goes on. :)